Hi.

It is Day 4.

I just want to say.

No. I am not feeling happy.

Loving you has become a habit.
To care bout you has become a routine in my life.
Having to know that I am part of your life has become something essential in my life.

Just not quite used to this change.

天生穷苦无怨言
后生努力等春天
人生为何只为钱
名利双收为重点

处处细心为他人
只愿换个知心者
付出过多心疲倦
但愿知音多疼些

男儿有泪不轻含
只是未到伤心处
而若泪从心中流
情意必定停止住

爱人从古不容易
是个麻烦的东西
但若有个知心者
两人共渡共长眷

I don't know what I can do.

Is just being there good enough?
Am I supposed to do more?
Or am I doing too much?
Some space is to be given?

So many thoughts.
So many doubts.
I really think and ponder too much.
But I can't help it.

"At the darkest hour, there will be light"
I hope this is the darkest one already.

Gonna be a long recovery..
I wanna be there.
I wanna to be useful, to be reliable, to be someone who will make your day better.
But, how?

When there are expectations,
There will also be disappointments.
Newton's 3rd Law.

This year's birthday experienced that.

Happy birthday to myself! :D

I am 20 now.
No longer a teenager more~

Old le.
One more year and will really become adult le.
Over the years have learned a lot.
The way of thinking, the way of treating people, the way of speech.
Changed a lot.

This year's birthday is spent at camp,
Serving the nation.
Busy day~
Tiring day~
Long day~
Eventually this special day doesn't feel really special anymore.
Haha.

Luckily there are those sweet wishes from friends and family that makes me feel better.
At least there is that :)

Maybe for the past two years,
There are surprises and celebrations.
This year don't have,
Finds it a bit more boring.
Well..
Life isn't exciting all the time right?
Or at least, I have an "exciting" day @ camp. hahaha.

Hopefully this year of 20 for me will be a smooth sailing one!
Let me sail to my ORD!
If I can make 3 wishes,
One of it shall be for those I love,
To stay healthy, strong, and happy :)

Happy birthday to me!
Happy birthday to Jiang Gary!

:) :)