Wow~ I'm 16 now!! Haha.
Can't believe i'm on this Earth for 16 yrs alrdy.
Time flies.

365 days later i would be 17 again, in another kind of life-.-

I recieved 2 presents ytd!! Actually got 4.
Just that 2 of them are given a month ago. Haha.
I got a Red 'Crumpler' bag from my family!! A sport shoes from my Sis'boyfriend.
Ytd got a cake from Daisy n Darren. And a basketball from a whole lot of ppl.
I shall write a thank you list some other days. Lets hope i will rmbr. Lol..
Thanks you guys!! I really appreciated it=) Haha.

Birthdays messages have been coming in.
Thank you all for rmbring my birthday. Haha.
Some still missing.
But now is still morning, maybe later in the day. Haha.

I went for Flag Day ytd morning too,
For my CIP.
Took a tin, stand there ask ppl for donation.
Nt fun at all-.-
Luckily i followed Jun Jie to a correct location, where there is few competitors.
So i managed to get at least a half tin full collection in an hour plus time.
Please help donate to those who are holding donation cans nxt time,
Even if 10 cents they will also tink u r their savior.
Trust me i m nt kidding.
Lol.

Band n Choir Public Performance coming up.
Lets hope it will be a successful one for both party.
I would be going for both,
And wad clothes to wear is a serious problem. Lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
Today is a happy occasion,
So lets not talk abt unhappy stuff.
Haha.
The incomplete part,
Let's wait till 11.59pm and hope it would be filled.

May my wishes be granted,
Cause i really need them.

I watched all the CNY's movies.
CJ7, Kung Fu Dunk, Ah Long Pte Ltd.
Out of the three, i like Kung Fu Dunk the most.
Maybe becos it consists of the things that i like.
Basketball, Jay, Kung Fu. Funny too. Lol

The other two are also funny,
But i like Kung Fu Dunk more. Haha.

My mummy told me i'll be having some luck tis year!!
Never ask her is in which area,
But definitely nt in romance ba,
Cause i'm such a failure in it. N everything have gone so wrong.

I realised it has been quite a long time since i once posted physical entry.
But cant blame me,
Emo people publish Emo entry de. Hehe.

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But i just wanna pursue my fairytale=)

I think i muz have gone mad.
I have done so much for smth,
Smth that will not become a reality.
Think i gone really idiotic.

Subconcious mind are funny, yet powerful.
Guides me to do funny things.
Keep me hanging there,
When i m suppose to release my grip and fall.
Imagine this:
I m holding on to a rope,
Which is catching fire on the other end.
My hands are sorched, but i dun want to let go.
Maybe it's gone numb.
I dunno.
But that's my present situation.

Ppl say love is blinded.
But i have been in darkness for so long.
To tell the truth,
I think i have gone lost and got really afraid.
In fact, i AM afraid of darkness.

'Miracles exist if you believe it'
I do, but before it comes u will have to pay a price, right?
The basic law of this nature world. Basic yet cruel..
How long more am i suppose to pay be4 it really comes?
I m out of everything. What's more does it want to take?
I worked towards it, I tried to pursue it, I failed.
I am really exhausted.

Being emo is a protection,
Protecting myself from this reality.
It acts as a stopper too,
Restricting the deepest part of the h-e-a-r-t from surfacing.
When it comes, i really dunno how to take it.
What would i have become if i m being an e-person now?
I am too cowardy to experiment it.

Imaginations are FICTIONS!!
But sometimes it is able keep u moving forward.
Isn't that ironic?
The more ironic thing is that, when ppl try to make it a fact,
They got really hurt. But why do they still persist in doing that?
Tell me if u have the answer.

Smth is really wrong with me,
But i dunno how to explain it.
Smth has got into me.
But i dun feel like removing it.

It is impossible to grab a hand of sands and hold onto it,
Most of it will juz flow away, no wonder how hard u try to grab it.
But maybe its the small amount of remainders,
That makes ppl want to do it.

I am not a stubborn person,
But this is the first time i m so persistent.
For smth that will never come...

I will continue to pay for the miracle,
Cause this is the last chance that i can do so.
Being a shadow behind you is better than nth,
Cause at least there is still light,
Allowing me be able to see u.

14/2 - Valentines' Day.
On this day, i truly know that Black is really suitable for me.

I dun believe in miracles.
It never comes.
Facts are dead,
There is no chance u can actually make it move.

I dug it out,
U crashed it down.
Thank you for leaving me,
The pieces that i can pick.

Its just 10 days away from my birthday.
I suddenly hope it will never comes.
Cos i dun want such an empty one.
I cant get it filled, forever cant.

Fairytale needed colours,
I am destinied only to Black.
Your smile is always so be sunny,
But u won't noe that i m actually crying.

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending,
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever,
Then live the rest of our life
But not together.

Whats the point if i really like u...

13/2!!
Went to watch 'Kung Fu Dunk'!!
NICE!
Haha.
Maybe because its basketball, kung fu, JAY CHOU!!
All the stuff that i like, that's why i like it. haha.
9/10!! Lol. I'll recommend it to my friends de. Lol.

Its here!!
What is here??
Lol.
That is here!!
?/????

Hope i will be able to put it down.
Cause i was nearly suffocate by it.
Is song is soooooooooo nice.
洋葱(Yang Cong) by Yang Zhong Wei, an artist from Taiwan.
The lyrics is ridiculously meaningful and nice. To me at least. Lol.
Hope u guys will like it too.
Song is nice, lyrics is meaningful, singer is cool.
Good song=)

Back in school.
No point.
Malaysia seems better,
For the first time.
Because at there,
I still can smile.
I dunno,
What the hell.

I got shaken.
Roughly, Painfully, Totally.
Everything fall,
Confidence, Heart, Soul.
Foundation. Destroyed.
I'm walking on a single log,
Balancing above a big Black Hole.
If I juz trip and fall,
Troubles, no more.

I swallowed,
My sorrow.
The arrow,
Hit my soul.
I feel like bursting,
But it juz not so easy.
U keep me hanging,
I got really dizzy.
If i could release and fall,
Maybe it will be better for all.

Just so you know,
You never know.
Who will know,
What is wrong.
You never see, never hear,
Did u ever realise, I was here.
I dunno, how long more i still can last.
But one day, i will really shatter like a glass.
But till then will u know,
That i really like you so. 17.

Another 4 days have passed,
I'm back at Singapore again. Haha.

Been to Hannah's, Aaron's and Eugene's hse today.
Bai nian bai nian~~!!
Thx for the entertainment and the Ang Baos!!
Fun!XD

Didnt go for dinner with them,
Cause feeling a bit tired,
May be the side effect after a long car ride ytd. Lol.
And they are going to a far place,
Didnt have the energy to.
Went home have my Mum's Laksa,
GOOD! Lol.

I watched 'CJ7' at Malaysia btw.
Been in the queue for half an hour before being able to get the tickets.
The show was okay okay only,
Funny of cos, Stephen Chow's movies are always humourous.
Touching also. Teach u some life values. Lol
But the show is lack of climax and surpises.
Very easy to know what to expect what would the next scene be like.
So, so-so only. 6/10, i rated.

Wanna watch 'Ah Long Pte Ltd' and 'Kung Fu Dunk'
Gonna watch it by this week.
TIME!! Please provide me with that. Lol.

No news..
Not the one on tv of cos. Another kind.
Gone missing-.-
Deliberately missing..
Forget it.. Cant do anything abt it.
Constructing the foundation of Miracle.
But sensing a typhoon coming to blow everything down.
Hope can withstand it..

Understand u up to!!=)

4 days since i posted.
Unbelievable, i m at Malaysia now.Lol.

2nd day here.
Yesterday arrived.
Missed sch, both ytd and today.
Missed lots of stuff-.-
Kinda bored here=x
Didnt mean to say that but really is.

No choice, bai nian. Lol
Tmr gonna be even more boring.
Travelling to a place whereby there is no entertainment.
Sounded isolated eh. Haha.

Going home on Sat. Which is like 3 more days from now?
Dunno what will be waiting for me then.
Hw??Student life stinks!!!>_<
Though there is some memorable stuff oso.

Nth more to add la.
So pisssssssssssed!!
I kant sign in the msn!!
Dunno why, juz cant.
But the ironic thing is that,
Even if i signed it, i dun tink i got anybody to chat to.
Lol.

Gonna end here.
Rubbishes overwhelming rubbish bin.
Zai jian!!

I purposely put tis post as red.
Cause i want to make it a notice.
AND TO RESEMBLE MY ANGER.

Rumours.
Dun tink anybody like to be in it.
But everybody like to HEAR AND SPREAD it.

Dun say no to that.
U dare to face your conscience if u say no, when u actually did tis,
"I heard rumours saying Boy A likes Girl B."?
You're a f-face if u dare to.
Cause u dun really have a HEART!

That is also call spreading of rumours.
Cause u r actually helping to spread it when u tell any pair of ears.
Curiosity is good.
But telling another person is nv cool.
It juz makes the victim wanna bash u,
So prepare well if u really did so. =)

Spread it when its a fact la.
Then nobody will get hurt, angry or sad.

HUILIN IS JUST MY FRIEND. okay?
so STOP IT.

thank you.

1/2/2008.
Officially marching into the Feb.
A special month!
Look to the left of my blog.
Part of the reasons is there.
Another part is kinda obvious? Ha!

Today was rather a rare day.
A type of day that RARELY comes.
Half day today!
Sec 4'07 did the sch proud, and we are rewarded too. Haha.
If you think tis is the special reason.
Kinda wrong actually.=)

Dismissed at 11, i stayed till 2 to do class deco and hw.
Went to lunch. Yea! HaXD
Sat, Chat, Played. Taught+)) Walked, shopped.
Sweet!+D

1/2/08.
A memorable day.
Cos it consists a memorable reason.
I will not forget,
such a sweet, special season.

Lets hope miracle will juz happen.
someday...sometime...with someone...