I think i muz have gone mad.
I have done so much for smth,
Smth that will not become a reality.
Think i gone really idiotic.

Subconcious mind are funny, yet powerful.
Guides me to do funny things.
Keep me hanging there,
When i m suppose to release my grip and fall.
Imagine this:
I m holding on to a rope,
Which is catching fire on the other end.
My hands are sorched, but i dun want to let go.
Maybe it's gone numb.
I dunno.
But that's my present situation.

Ppl say love is blinded.
But i have been in darkness for so long.
To tell the truth,
I think i have gone lost and got really afraid.
In fact, i AM afraid of darkness.

'Miracles exist if you believe it'
I do, but before it comes u will have to pay a price, right?
The basic law of this nature world. Basic yet cruel..
How long more am i suppose to pay be4 it really comes?
I m out of everything. What's more does it want to take?
I worked towards it, I tried to pursue it, I failed.
I am really exhausted.

Being emo is a protection,
Protecting myself from this reality.
It acts as a stopper too,
Restricting the deepest part of the h-e-a-r-t from surfacing.
When it comes, i really dunno how to take it.
What would i have become if i m being an e-person now?
I am too cowardy to experiment it.

Imaginations are FICTIONS!!
But sometimes it is able keep u moving forward.
Isn't that ironic?
The more ironic thing is that, when ppl try to make it a fact,
They got really hurt. But why do they still persist in doing that?
Tell me if u have the answer.

Smth is really wrong with me,
But i dunno how to explain it.
Smth has got into me.
But i dun feel like removing it.

It is impossible to grab a hand of sands and hold onto it,
Most of it will juz flow away, no wonder how hard u try to grab it.
But maybe its the small amount of remainders,
That makes ppl want to do it.

I am not a stubborn person,
But this is the first time i m so persistent.
For smth that will never come...

I will continue to pay for the miracle,
Cause this is the last chance that i can do so.
Being a shadow behind you is better than nth,
Cause at least there is still light,
Allowing me be able to see u.