Its March now.
2nd of March. Cool.
Time is flying,
Hell is arriving.
Destiny would be decided in a few more months time.
Good luck mates.

I had a WONDERFUL dream last night.
It was great, i was so 'into' it.
Things that i hoped for occurred! Haha.
I really really love it....
But how much i feel like crying when i opened my eyes.
That face that i longed for was replaced by the white ceiling.
I hate white. At least at that moment.

Also, i realised how close i m from breaking apart.
I'm alrdy at the abyss from breaking into two different people.
I find a part of me disliking this reality so much,
And how much is the other half longing for miracles.
Such a dangerous sign. I didn't expect myself to deteriorate at such a rapid speed.
Gonna make some preparations, out of nth.

I realised it has been a week since my birthday.
No news. EMPTY EMPTY EMPTY
Such a hollowness. Deep in my left chest.

'Do you really hate me that much?'
Wad a stupid question to ask.
No one is going to say yes in front of u.
Mostly it's the action that will provides the answer.
I got yours now.
But what on earth m i suppose to do?
Submit myself to the darkness so as to avoid u in the light?
I wish i can.
However, Black dun accept romance,
That's why i'm half-hanging.

I need reasons for why u are doing so,
Give me at least one to let me die in peace.

Silence is golden
But no one will actually know that below the color is actually a killer.
Human heart are hard to guess.
Prepare to get hurt if u want to do so.
Bandages dun work for heart,
If not i would have been cured long ago.

A key to open ur heart?
Nt yet,
Just give me a step to go to your side.

J.Y,
If i realy perished,
Will u really be happy?