I realised.
Its good to be neutral.
Stay simple and insignficant.
So ppl wont run away....=)

27th May 2008.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHONGYUN!!
Many ppl's birthday coming up too.
1st 2nd 5th and 7th all have.
Interesting.

Holiday alrdy!!
It's supposed to be holiday.
But i m still having sch.
Sec 4 life.
Is really pathetic-.-

Half a yr is abt to be gone!
Wooo.
Time flies.
I m feeling really bored!! Lots of works still left to be done.
ARGH!!
Departure are arriving soon.
I didnt fulfill my promise to myself.
There are still regrets.

Ooo.Some of the flowers are blooming alrdy.
Left one la be exact.
But nonetheless,
One left stagnant is better than everyone remains stationary.
Hope there would be a very nice flower festival=)

Ok! Time for another song composed by me!!
I like this a lot.
I really need some melody to make it alive.
逃
我想问
我是否很丑
为何你
见到我就拼命闪躲
如果是真的
我也无能了
因为我不能让
时间倒流

你的手
现在和谁要温柔
没感受
我的心已经伤了过头
夹在爱与狠之中
我让自己被寂寞吞没
使着用眼泪
洗去你的笑容

我想逃
逃出你设的全套
让自己
能辙低忘掉
你的笑
已不再为我闪耀
为何我的泪
拼命的狂飚

逃不掉
你所设下的残忍全套
我的心
早已为你辙低燃烧
只能忍痛
去接受你不在的镜头
在你不了解的黑暗中
我是着治疗心中的痛
(在你听不见的黑暗中
我爱你，你是否
真的不懂)

Feeling cant be hidden.
I juz spilled a whole lot out.

Wa shiok!!
Ytd was so cool.
I went out until 11 plus then reached home.
So long nv go out till so late.
Miss that kind of experience. Lol.

In the noon, met Eugene at Lot 1 at around 1 plus.
Lot 1 underwent renovations.
Kinda different now.
At first want to play arcade one.
Then the arcade closed.
Walao.
Then we spent our afternoon aimlessly till 4,
Be4 meeting Jasper, Valerie and Joanne to go to Orchard.
Took 190 for around 30 - 45mins?
Then went to Takashimaya.
Walked and walked and walked.
We even went to Wisma, then walked bak to Taka again.
Bought smth for ZhongYun at Wisma.
Then couldnt find anything to eat at Taka.
Everywhere is full-.- Dinner time ma.
In the end we walked to Cinneleisure.
Where we had our dinner at Pastamania at 9-.-
Ate and chatted, then went to shop for Poh Hui's and Jessica's birthday presents.
Things at More Than Words are rather cheap now.
Great Singapore Sale.Lol.
After that went to take MRT at around 10.

What a day!!
I spent like 10 hours outside?
Not 10 hours revising.
LOLXD
But it is fun!=D

Today is 25th,
Poh Hui's birthday!!
Happy Birthday Poh Hui!!!=)

Tmr is O level!!
GOOD LUCK GUYS AND GIRLS!!
And English Prelim oral.
Get ur accent and vocal cord ready. Lol.

Today is boring.
Side-effect of going out for too long the day before. Lol.
3/2'08 are having their chalet right now.
West side is raining,
Hope East is not.
Enjoy!!=)
I MISSED MY CHALET LA!!

K nth more to add.
I muz now try to get in contact with the world again.
U're never a spare tyre!! To You-Know-Who

Wooohooo!!
23rd May 2008
Mother Tongue Camp over!!
4 days of MT O_O
Its over.
Finally.
Lol.

O is on nxt monday for the Express ppl.
GOOD LUCKS!!=D
My English prelim oral oso on monday.
I'm the 2nd person.
Lol.
Wish me goooooooooooooooood luck.

Today is fun!
The bball team celebrated Mr Tay's birthday!!
After sitting in the canteen for hours,
We finally able to get Mr Tay to cut the cake!
Got some picts:

The cake that was hiding for very long.. Lol.


Singing birthday song!! Look at Mr Tay's smile. Lol.


A lucky shot!!Managed to capture it just in times.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TAY!!!!=D

I oso found some random picts in my phone.
Lets share:

Its raining!! Our X Country day.4/3'08 had a whole shelter for themselves.HahaXD


Not one, two actually. Lol.


It was rather comfortable.but we have nth to do-.- Thats why these photoes were taken. Lol.


Ruiting and Tang Ge. And Ze Xun. Triangle <3?>_<
How man can Ameer be? Lol


ZhiXiang's bball shoes!! Which i wore to get my interclass champion.
TY ZhiXiang!!


The lady is Ms Faith, my CM. The guy is Mr Chua, my econs teacher.
I like the both of themXD Haha.We're at Mr Gerald's wedding btw.
It was damm sweet. Blissful marriage!


Taken on Wed. That was Shao Hao, taking free throw.
Lost the game la. But i didn't get to play>_<

No more liao. But i tink the post is long enough.Haha.
Nth changes okay!
Lets all remain the same.
I dun want history to repeat.
I think i was possessed for the last few days.
Lets all go bak to normal.
I dun want to destory any more things.
Cherish. Is all i want.
GOOD LUCK TO UR 'O'!!
Stop dreaming la Jason ONG!!!!

Ah.
Now i hate myself even more.
Nvm i understand who am i really am.
Cant blame u.

Yea, i sucks

Thurs, 22 May.
I think my posts' timing finally make sense alrdy.
I changed the time setting.
Lol.
But whatever still,
Time is running out.
The handful of sand i m holding is leaking away.
What will be left?

I changed my link too.
I wonder who will actually notice that.
I only told one or two person.
I like my new link!!
A love in oblivion.
Well...
Smth so insignificant of cos will be forgotten.
I supposed.
Things can be misleading.
But dun dare to be frank.
Being direct only result in two situations:
Ppl will run,
Or u will celebrate the results with joy.

Hey its raining!!
Wow.
In the night.
Black sky and raindrops.
Black world and teardrops.
The fan keep spinning and spinning.
But i'm getting more and more dizzy on it.

Sharks and dolphins live tgt in the sea.
But both of them can never be tgt.
Songs can be nice,
But it cannot change anything.
More like a kind of drug.
Make u forget everything for a moment,
And throw u back to the reality when the last note end.

A pebble and a stone can collide.
Friction will be produced.
But whatever that remained after that moment will only be heat.
That burns.

Ah i m trapped.
Fantasies can be misleading.
But never realistics.

U should noe,
I supposed?
U looked so mysterious but witty u see.
But yeh,
Things can never get closer.

How far is far?
That far.
Is far forever far?
Yea, just so far.

Chances dun come twice,
Miracles dun always happen.
Walao eh,
I m a retard.
Sry i emo-ed again.
Over such a small matter.
Long post.
Sry&Bye.

You would discover the truth which lie within the space.
On the moon perhaps.Lol.
Thesepostsarefortheonlyone.
Sryfordreamingagain.
Ithinkigotmyselfoutofcontrolagain.
Scaretoletudiscoverthis,
Causei'mafraiduwillrunawayfrome.

I have posted so many.
105th post now, on the 21st May 2008

Ytd was 20th, so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN JUN JIE!!
Welcome to the '16' world.
May u stay sweet and happy with Eunice Seah for a long long time=)
And oso my parents' 24th marriage anniversary!!!
Time flies yeh?
24 yrs...
My elder sister is now 23.Lol.

Now having Mother Tongue camp.
Everyday is Chinese chinese chinese..
Tmr got mock paper 2.
2 hours early in the morning.
Bah!

Boring.
In class is better.
At least i can make unnecessary observations,
And disturb ppl anyhow.
Lol.
But consequences come after it.
I'm suffering from it now-.-

O level is coming soon for the Express ppl.
Keep it up keep it up.
Jia you jia you!!
Haha.
I recieved my extended curriculum timetable today!
1.5 hours per lesson.
Gonna have 4 of it almost everyday.
Walao eh,
55mins is torturing enough-.-

Around 5 more months to freedom.
Yea! Lol.
Life gonna be so different after that..

Aiya.
Nth more to add la.
I'm supposed to do my work,
but yet i m posting here.
Lol.

Natural diasters are happening everywhere.
God, bless the world.
Tornadoes are spinning in my heart,
O, we are really in two different world...

GOD DAMM IT LAAAAAAAAA!!!
I gonna find some excuses,
Hmmmm...
I love breezeful and sunny day.
K la, breezeful and hot dayXD

I changed my blogskin!!
Like so finally.
Lol.
Somehow like Afiq's blog.
Black n red.
But i like the quote in the background=)

Gonna change link soon.
Now got the habit of keep changing and changing.
Haha.

Today is boring.
I did nth.
Dealing with my blog alrdy spent most of my time.
ZzZ
Tmr schooling again.
Good or bad?
Baahhh!!

People's minds are hard to guess at times.
Thats why questions always left unanswered for me-.-

I composed another song!!
I composed 3, including the new one.
2 is for you, another one is for you.
Lol.
Different 'you', you and you. Haha.

Okay is in chinese.
Sry,
Still unable to compose an english song.
My name is nt Justin. LolXD

不敢

蓝天
衬托了你的美，
你的脸
牢记在心里面。
爱情的萌芽
就在此成长
但我的心不禁觉得慌张。

乌云，
随时会来覆盖这天地。
失去你，
是我最害怕的事情。
盼望的那份爱，
可能都不会来。
我就是不要用等待，
去换取那份无奈。

Chorus:
我不敢期待得太多，
怕换来得全是虚空。
脑海里的世界，
和现实总是差太远。
你爱她，
但未必会得到想要的回答。
幸福和你的世界，
是否注定离我这么远。

我懂，
朋友与爱人的分别。
但不懂，
到底该向往哪一边。
单方的爱情，
多么地冷清
说出的爱你也会淡化在空气里。

告诉我，
是否是时候该放弃。
但是我，
不知道怎样才会忘记。
雨后天晴的道理，
爱情多美丽，
童话故事的结局，
只能在梦里延续。
Repeat Chorus

How?I tink i have fallen into a pit.

18!
17th May had passed very fast away=(
Ytd was sunny, but not really breezeful.
So warm!

Stupid heart problem.
Make me unable to play my bball well in the morning.
Anybody know why one's heart can suddenly pump very fast?
Makes me so giddy and breathless.
Argh!!

Afternoon was better.
No vigorous exercises.
Only walking and walking and walking.
Haha.
A day at the North Part of Singapore.
Spent the whole afternoon.
But nv achieve one of the aim of going out.
Lol.
Take photo!!
Chances come rarely you see...=(
But still i was damm happy.
Cause i FIRST time succeeded!
HahaXD

O,
I realised Ang Mo Kio HDB Hub is very small.
Haha.

How?!?!
Motivation gone.
So dun feel like doing works.
I HATE geometry.
Prove prove prove.
I DUNNO HOW!
WTH.

Nxt week is Mother Tongue week.
Last minute chiong-ing for the Express Chinese people.
JIA YOU!!
Score ur first A1.
Haha.

Whatever still,
Hw is still my 'best' friend.

PS: TRY ur best to jump to Band 1 la! Band 2 deXD

Friday!
16/5/08

Life is so systematic nowadays.
I reach home at 7 plus.
Bathe and eat till 8 plus.
And i will do hw until 11.30!
Then slp.
Robot robot robot.

Lala!
Thank you!
I now have a better understanding about myself.
But dunno la.
I may be sad,
Then normally my post will be for that particular day.
Hence by the next day,
I may be feeling better alrdy.
So u may see a different person between the real me and the blog me.
But yea,
Things can be quite misleading at times.
No one's fault=)

Things gonna change somehow somewhere.
And understanding makes that possible.
Ah,
Things w/o communication can really go so wrong..
Those fond memories will always remain,
But i hope more of it will come..
I know u'll see this:
I said be4, i will respect all ur decisions.
So if u have one i really hope u will just tell me directly k?=)

P.S: Sry for all the misunderstandings.
Sry for being so imperfect.
Sry for everything.
Sry sry sry...

Sunday.
11/5
2 more days
I'm so tired.

Works are piling up.
I cant seem to finish it.
Problems keep forming.
I cant seem to be able to solve it.

Lack of communication is really so problematic.
And thats what make problems to difficult to solve.
Questions cant be answered,
Solutions cant be found.

School are tiring.
Life are sucky.
Love is deteriorating,
Heart are breaking.

Each day is a question mark.
I have so many.
Ah please,
I just need some solutions.

I said before,
I respect all your decisions.
Juz make one and give me explanation,
And i will have it ur way.
Silence is like a knife.
That will slice n slice ur heart in pieces.
At least say smth,
So i will know.
"halo halo!!"

If the love is like a shooting star,
I will wait for it to appear again.
If passion is like a fire,
Sry, but i have been burnt.

O today is Mothers' Day.
Three cheers for all the noble mothers!
Cheer cheer cheer!!

I miss u,
Cause u'll always be my baby..
Support David Cook ty.

Its May.
And wadeva the date it is,
I dun care.

Things have been going so wrong.
I know.
But i dun want to voice it.
Cause i scare everything will be gone.

I hate myself for being such a coward.
But maybe thats why i cherish!
Wow,
Nt a characteristic to be happy.

I tot things have become better.
Why not??
No it doesnt.
What have gone wrong?
I dunno.
Everything perhaps?
But one thing is certain and right.
That is i sux in all areas.

That feeling is coming bak.
I can feel it.
Holding everything bak.
Maybe i will feel better if i just let it flood my face.
But that will mean an end to everything.
Not what i want.
Or perhaps thats what she want?
Happiness comes with scarifices.
Maybe i shall do the 2nd part.

I am feeling sucky.
Real sucky.
How i wish i can just break down and give up.
Life just cant be so easy.
Wadeva.
It cant be any easier if smth u cherish is gone.

Maybe this is what they call retribution.
Yaya,
Keep it coming then,
How i wish it gives me a final blow so i can go.
Go to a place where i dun exist.

Does passion end just so quickly?
I love darkness i love thirteen.
Cause my heart is always left empty.
My eyes are wet, red and sore.
Again i have tripped and fall.

U can cry when ur precious stuff fall and break,
But what can u do when ur heart is stabbed and shattered?
A line,
to an end....?
Fine, i think i shld just give up.
Sorry, I Love You.