I am 18! How different is it? I think there isn't much difference. Maybe because I haven't sense it yet. But I think I am allowed to do many more things. Lol.
I think I am going back my words. I promised I won't do anything funny. But I think I am doing too many funny things. It has become a habit to suddenly remember some things and feel how the feeling comes crushing down. It has become a habit for me to wonder what you are doing and guessing your responses. It has also become a habit for me to accept your sudden goodbye and sudden stop in replying. Forming habit, is such an easy thing to do.
It is impossible not to think. Especially when I am alone or when I am listening to songs. It is hard to not imagine and wish. Who won't want fairytale to come true. But I think I have grown. I used to imagine and really hope for it. Now I will imagine but won't go hope much for it. Cause I think I have realized failure is a closer friend than success. Haha.
"I just can't believe how I feel about you girl." It always strikes me hard when I heard this line from the song Then by Brad Paisley. I know why you are asking me. I myself also can't really believe it. A feeling so fairytale-like but so everlasting. I think I have successfully chased you out of my range. Doubt you will really come here anymore. Lol. Wow. Success eh. Tsk. Haha.
I think I am having Monday blues. School. I just hate school. What is there to expect? After you have ended the last expectation. Freak it. I wish I can just curse and swear. For the moment now, I don't really like my life. I hate school. I hate the restrictions from my CCA. I hate me myself and I. LIFE Screwed it.
