I shall declared this is the number 300th post!
Keeping this blog for so long. Yearsss. Haha.
Never expect to have kept this blog for so long.
Only can say time flies. Haha
What's so surprising actually?
Yes, human do change.
Older we can, more things we realized.
Understanding how things work,
Do we have become better in what we do or think.
Over the past months, the process progress and changes.
Not to mention is to my surprise, is that it lasted so long.
Thinking, wishing, pondering, praying, hoping,
Liking you is a feeling that is getting strong and hard to stop.
I am taken aback too, that it will lasted so long.
Keeping in hand is a single grain of hope.
Expectation grows and grows.
Moments of happiness is dearly kept,
Extension of it, I sincerely prayed.

But it never really happens, it just come and go.
Understanding that fate is not within my control,
Then I realized I have forgotten so.
It is not the hope of possessing,
Rather, it is the hope of accompany.
Expecting people's actions is never good.
A stupid thing to do, I shall say.
Looking back and smile at the valuable moments.
Looking forward and is blinded by the thick mist.
Yet, I continue to move forward,
Leading myself to a position of uncertainty and confusion.
I think thus, it is time to remain stagnant.
Kidding will I be if I say I don't hope for perfection.
Every minute every second every moment, I am missing
You.
Over a million percent will it be true,
Utterly miraculously to have you by my side.
Vicious obstacles would I have to cross,
Exhaustion I came across.
Reality is cruel, harsh and cold.
Yes, I am trying my best to accept.
Most of the time it is disappointment,
Upholding my faith, sorry to say, is all because of you.
Cause perfection is hard to come by
Hard to say why, but this habit is hard to throw aside.

Let's not make it a situation of awkwardness and discomfort.
Your answer is obvious although no word is being said.
Let go, I won't. I am just standing still and wait. Continuing to.

Extra:
Horizontally is heartfelt words,
Vertically is what I really mean.
When you see yourself as a single human in this huge world,
The sense of insignificance to disheartening and heartbreaking.
Your eyes, is it just like this huge world?

Life is mundane.
Seriously. Nothing much to talk about.
Many things to ponder about but then realized there is no answer to it.

I am getting used to this feeling of emptiness, hollowness.
I don't know how to describe it.
It just feels so..empty. To the extent it is rather scary.
And depressing.
It happens everytime after goodbye or at any sight.
The hollow numb feeling..

The motivation to go school is depleting.
The reason used to be clear,
But now it seemed to be avoiding.
Trying my best to grab hold a handful of sand.

I have many many things to say to you.
But I know I can't say it out.
Cause it may frightens you off.
I am like using my head banging against the wall.
It is bleeding.
Let's see when will it crack.

No matter what, at least I know I tried.
Even if I die, I don't think I will regret.
Haha.
If anything happens, please remember that in your life, there is this guy who have liked you deeply. At least, I hope, that will mean something.

Not committing suicide la. Chill...

It is funny how human nature work.
How is it possible to miss someone so much,
When you know the other party is not being bothered at all?
Jeez.

I learned about uncertainty today.
And yes, I am feeling very uncertain.
Will you rectify this uneasiness of mine?
Well.. I really hope you will.

I realized my blog posts are hitting 300.
Not bad.
How old is this blog ah? Kinda forget=x Haha.

Well well well! It has been 3 times this month!
Yay~ How I wish it is everyday.
Haha.
This feeling is funny.
The feeling of so close yet so far.
In fact it is actually not close one.
Imagining things only. zzz.
How I wish I can don't imagine.
And let it be real.
But. It is not my choice.
Haha. The ball is no longer in my court.
I have passed it on.
Now, I can only wait.
Not complaining though. Not complaining about waiting.
I have been waiting for so long! Would have complained long ago if i want. Haha.
Just commenting only. Haha.

Feeling awful when knowing you are feeling pain but are unable to help.
Zzz. The feeling of being useless.
Really hope you are feeling better now.
Please recover.

I find it hard to say goodbye.
Cause in the virtual world you are hard to catch.
That's why I find it hard to take my sight off you,
As I scared it will be hard to regain it.

It is not easy to really say it out,
Cause I scared it might frightened you off.
Is it your nature or is it really what Scorpio is capable of.
You are just so mysterious that it is hard to guess. Haha.

"Your smile is a drug that is hard to kick.
Your presence is something hard to miss.
I wish you will right next to me,
As missing you just run too deep."

'If missing you is a crime, I am a persistent criminal.
If loving you is a sin, forgive me for being a great sinner.'
Can put in movie already.
Hahahaha.
喜欢你, Y.

You stepped into my life,
You stepped into my world.
You brighten up the sky,
You liven up my world.

You provides the spark,
You got the fire growing.
You keep the flame going,
You have become the one and only.

You are all that I miss,
You are the one that I need.
You behave like a mist,
You are difficult to reach.

You conquered my thoughts,
You invaded my heart.
You are the lady I hope for,
You are the goal I am chasing.

I am always missing you,
Like a flower longing for the sun.
I have no idea what else I can do,
Keep going, I need to persevere and last.
Every morning I wake up,
Your message is the first I hope to see.
Once in a long time will it happen,
Up to the sky my mood will go,
Like a lucky soul who strikes a lottery.
You may not have an answer yet, just
Let me have a chance to prove myself.

Isn't it obvious? Lol