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Wednesday, June 23, 2010


I am only left with dates!
I LOST THE DETAILS!
Cause the phone spoilt.
NONONONONO!
I spent so much effort in noting down the details of every moments I have with you.
Why now am I only consoled by the dates I have the right side of this blog?

God,
Spare me.

~ { 10:23 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Friday, June 18, 2010



我想问
我是否很丑
为何你
见到我就拼命闪躲
如果是真的
我也无能了
因为我不能让时间倒流

你的手
现在和谁要温柔
没感受
我的心已被伤了过头
夹在爱与狠之中
我让自己被寂寞吞没
试着用眼泪
洗去你的笑容

我想逃
逃出你设的圈套
让自己
能辙低忘掉
你的笑
已不再为我闪耀
为何我的泪
拼命的狂飙

逃不掉
你所设下的残忍圈套
我的心
早已为你辙低燃烧
只能忍痛
去接受你不在的镜头
在你不懂的黑暗中
我试着治疗心中的痛
(在你听不到的黑暗中
我爱你,你是否真地不懂...)


Fullstop.

~ { 10:35 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Wednesday, June 16, 2010


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate falling from the sky REAL HARD back to HELL!
If you don't know,
IT KILLS.
But what can I do?!
I just feel like breaking down and cry.

Why must it be like this?
Can you tell me it is a joke? Please.
I am deceiving myself that it is a joke.
You are just playing a prank on me.
Or maybe you sent the message wrong?
No. As the seconds ticked by,
I know it isn't.
I have been declared to be threw back to Hell. Officially.

I DON'T like this.
Why must HUGE, ENORMOUS, TREMENDOUS and HORRIBLE disappointments come crushing down upon me after I have expected so much from it?
Why must it be like that all the time?
Initially I am beginning to like my life.
Now is I think it is really screwed up.

To whoever up there that people are praying to,
What on earth are you trying to do to me?
Resilience against dismay?
Freak you. I had enough of it.

~ { 10:33 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Monday, June 14, 2010


There is this horoscope application on Facebook which I used.
Usually I think it is not THAT accurate.
But that view is finally broken when i saw this,
15th June 2010,
"Pisces Love Horoscope
You are likely to distance yourself from others now, feeling the need to withdraw and reflect. Your thoughts are inclined to be heavy and pessimistic at this time, so it would be good to realize that you are only seeing part of the picture. This can also be a time of leaving, separating from relationships and choosing a new way."

I got no relationship to leave, to clarify.
But finally,
I think it is time, for me to go back to where I belong.
The Dark.

~ { 11:20 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Sunday, June 13, 2010


CAN SEE THE TIMING OF THIS POST?!
It is actually 3am!!
Why am I doing at such a wee hour?
Thinking of you.
Hahaha. That has become more of like a habit actually.
England vs USA now. The World Cup craze=D
The whole world of soccer fans are crazy over these now.
I am, partially.
Not because I am not a super soccer fan,
But because part of my attention are always diverted to you.=)

I went temple today. Soooooooo many people.
Super packed.
I made the same old wishes.
Cannot say it out, cause people say like that won't come true alr.
However, yes, it does concern you. Sorry!
After seeing sooooooo many people trying to donate some money, get some oranges so they squeezed and pushed, it got me thinking.
What are they really hoping for?
Many people will have their own reasons.
Family problems, work problems. But I believe, majority is money problems.
My parents also! They do hope for some easy money to ease our family financial belt.
I think I am too young to consider that, so my hopes usually just revolve around a few areas.

Then the next thought I thought of the movie Bruce Almighty,
Where there is this scene of him, being a God, having to answer billions of prayers.
Billions. I know the scene is exaggerated, but billions.
Maybe now I know why I am in present states?
My wishes are too insignificant that's why it is not being answered.
To the great one I pray to,
To the people who have more pressing needs,
To you, the unreachable goal.

~ { 2:56 AM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Thursday, June 10, 2010


A love is not to possess;
To possess is not a love.

I hope I can live up to it.
Cause I see a "NO" coming my way.

Tsk.
It shouldn't hurt this way..

~ { 12:09 AM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Monday, June 07, 2010


"Few more steps is it?
But why it seems so far away?

noʎ ǝʌol ı
I do."

Well. I feel distracted so I am here blogging.
I have to start studying. I know I have to.
But i don't understand, why is it so difficult to get started?
Really don't know how I did it in sec 4.
I need to gain that momentum back.
After been so many things,
I want to end everything nicely.
If not it will be so wasted.

Actually coming to think of it,
Everything happened in Life will have a purpose.
All As except a B,
With that B I ended up in JJC.
With the thought of just trying to enhance my portfolio,
I ended up being the Head of a House.
With the thought of just trying to gain something in my council life,
I ended up being a Camp IC for a camp of 50.
With the thought of just knowing people,
I ended up knowing you and falling in love with you.
If only that B doesn't exist,
I don't think I would have met you.
So now linking everything back,
Maybe I come to JJ, is just to have the chance to meet you:)

I got so many things to say,
But I don't know how am I suppose to go about doing that.
I don't mind waiting but I am just afraid,
Once I stop trying,
Am I going to lose everything?

~ { 11:40 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Saturday, June 05, 2010


Today a day with you;
It is never enough;
Nevertheless,
Thank you for the accompany;
And I think you are exceptionally beautiful today:)

~ { 10:22 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;


Thursday, June 03, 2010


Brand new month!
HOLIDAY! Obviously that term doesn't live up to its meaning.
Haha. Revision Revision Revision. Ya I will.
Hope my motor will kickstart full force soon.

Hello! To whoever is reading this.
Thanks for coming to my blog.
Sorry if it dampens your mood,
Cause this blog's owner is a pessimist.

Happy thoughts are luxurious items to me,
Cause whenever I imagine it never take place.
Hence, I don't really to dare hope for wonderful things.
Yes I do wish and expect,
But I would force myself to think of the worse situations.
So to hope that it won't happen.
A cycle or whatever I don't know,
But really don't wish to take things for granted.

Don't know whether you have read what I meant to let you read.
Hope you have. Many things to say but don't know how to do it.
Haha. Maybe a heart-to-heart talk will be helpful.
But.. how?

~ { 10:38 PM }
I Love You morethanIcansay;