I thought today will be the day.
I seriously think so.
Apparently,
Something up in the sky makes it not.

I will be lying if I say my mood is all right.

I hope to make things more definite.
Actually I am quite a coward.
I seriously am.
I am scared of losing. So greatly.

This is the first week of school right?
It feels so long to me.
I don't know why.
Very very long.
Maybe it is the results?
It may be self-denial or optimism.
But I think it is really not the matter of As.
It is a matter of trying your best.
I think if you have put in all your best.
You shouldn't be regretting what you are getting.
I haven't give in mine.

Another reason can be the uncertainty.
I don't know where this is going.
I know it is heading for the right track and I am very happy bout that.
Very very happy.
Yet I don't know whether it can become something definite,
Or it will be just a temporal hallucination.
I won't be able to take the latter one well.

I will break, no. I will shatter.