I know I shouldn't hold on to it;
I know I won't experience it again;
I know I mustn't pester and irritates;
I know I don't deserve to be given another chance;
But.

I just can't let it go;

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Do you do what you did when you did with me,
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe that
That should be me

Many ppl dislike Justin Bieber.
Thinking he is gay, he is disgusting, he is like a girl blah blah blah.
I think they are just plain jealous.
He is young but he got talent and is earning big bucks.
While people who like to criticize him are doing mundane stuff in theirs lives, earning hard-earned money and saving them with care and concern.
See. They are just plain jealous.
Some people are just so short sighted.
Putting in layman term, they should have a degree of 5000.

From here we see.
Why should we care so much bout people's criticism?
Let me clarify.
Critiscism is not equal to feedback.
To me they are different.
If it is feedback, we should gladly accept it as it is meant to be helpful.
Criticism is not likewise. It is the other way round.
Anger words of people due to their own jealousy and childishness.

Everyone has some degree of childishness in them.
Want to be mature?
Just try not to be too childish.
Don't be too mature too.
Cause anything excessive is never good

Cant help it but to feel envious and a slight tingle of jealousy,
To see people able to find their partners and rely on one another.
They are two lucky souls.
Many have close friends too, not just/may not have a partner.
They are lucky too.
Now,
With ppl getting more and more busy,
I started to wonder.




Why am I so unlucky?



PS. Sometimes I just wonder. Who will really understand

Happy birthday Jolene Yiplene Good Friend!
Damn long la her name.
But she in real life quite short=x HAHA!
Happy nineteen~

Okay I think my blog is becoming like a dedication place for people.
Yet another post to dedicate to someone.
WHO?
SAMANTHA PAY! Hahaha.

Pay Xing'er Samantha.
How much more special can someone's name get?!
Not much. Haha!
To many she is Sam,
But I refuse to call her that. So guy-ish and common!
That's why she is also known as the following:
Salamander, SPXE, X, Happy Fruit and D. Disciple!
I not sure whether I got left out any=x Haha!

This January baby always has her birthday really early in the year.
That's why she is able to be the same age as me for more than a month.
However, with her being 18 now,
She doesn't really act like one.
Hyperactive: Jump shout scream and laugh in front of anybody at anywhere
Hyperventilating: Able to rant and talk in an agitated manner for nearly 30 seconds before taking deeeeep breaths.
Hyper-optimising: Able to see things in a bright manner, hence explained the origin of her nickname as stated above.
Hyper-positive: Able to absorb all my emo-ish and turning them into something positive.
She is just like a kid who you can also depend on when you need to. Haha.

Have known her for 3 years I think.
Don't know how on earth we become to what we are together.
We are closer than friends but never are lovers.
Have that relationship before?
So complicatedly complicated but actually it is just plain simple.

We are super close friends.
Haha!

It is a fortune to be able to find a soulmate.
Yet there is no need to rush.
But like all human,
Me got feeling too.

Seeing others feeling so sweet,
I can't help but to feel envious..
Hahaha.

Life ba.
Nothing is perfect.

Okay Irene asked me to dedicate a post for her on my blog,
And thus why I am here! Haha.
Actually I was just looking for a topic to write about for my blog,
And this young lady here volunteered herself to be one.
Epic leh? Haha.

She is a very bubbly girl.
Have a very unique voice,
Bright smile.
Pretty got it's meaning right when it is used on her.
And she is quite a good dancer too.
Know her more in Council,
But first seen her in Admin Day.
A quiet Westwoodland. Haha.
Good at drawing and dancing,
But rather fragile too! So do take care
Shared the same chem and math teacher as me.
Even made me walked a distance at night to lend her chemistry notes.
Haha!

Basically that is mostly what I know bout her la.
No motive in this post! Just obliging to her request.
So please please don't misunderstand. <----Disclaimer. Haha!

PS: Irene Siah! Be honored ok! You are the first to get a dedicated blogpost from me, on my blog!!!! HAHA!

I guess i should stop expecting to avoid getting disappointed;
I have overweighed myself
I don't weigh so much in others' world.




I enjoyed today's BBQ!
Tho I don't really merge in well but don't know why,
I still enjoy the company :)

If I say I still like you,
What will you say?

Thank you for caring.
But actually you don't really notice.

Say what you need to say;

I think the logic is about the same as what is the principle of my Life.
"Live life without regret".

Ever feel regretful before?
That intense, huge overwhelming guilt feeling that consume your internal,
Making you so awfully awful, utterly distorted.
That is the consequence of regret.
I suffered once. That's why I never want to suffer again.
And that is how my way of life is formed.

But yet.
After doing after I think I need to do.
I still get this hollow feeling.
What is it?
I don't know. Yet to identify..

Haunted by the past memories.
I think it is because of the regrets that are formed when everything ended.
But what else can I do?
What lost is lost,
You can't gain it back.

Learning how to let go is never an easy lesson to do.
This is one of the toughest.
Don't ask me why so.
I am baffled too. Lost for reasons to convince even myself.

Maybe a longer time will help,
But meanwhile this period isn't very enjoyable to bear thru.
With nth left for me to grasp,
Why on earth I still hanging here, unable to move?

Don't give me a helping hand cause I may not grab it.
Just pull me through and I think that will be better.

I hate the way I am still feeling towards...

Today I went back to JJ!
It is Open House.
Talked, chit chatted, played some basketball,
Shifted some tables and chairs,
And talk alot of rubbish.
I like this kind of Life. Haha.

The talking is all right.
But the rest has become too habitual already.
Overly.
How I still look out,
How I still bother,
How I still care.
How I still hope and wish everything will be all right for..

Zzzz.
This is taking too long to get over.

I think I should post something.
Why?
Cause it is 11/1/11! Hahha
Make a wish
*Wish*

SMILE AND INVITE THE WORLD! :D

Don't be sad. Don't be despair.
Cause people don't care!

SO! BE HAPPY LO! :D

Yes I want people to see this.
But those people I want them to see,
They won't be seeing this.
Yet, this is the only place I can say it out.
Meaning. The intended targets are not seeing this.

I mean no harm.
However, I think my actions are frightening people off.
I think I am.
I mean no harm.
Just hope to chit chat. Talk.
Well. I think that is too much to hope for right?
Yes I think it is.

Can't believe I am actually feeling tingle of sadness when I am typing this.
I just don't like the feeling of losing friends.
But maybe I should really.
Just let it go.
Let everything go.
Stop pinning hope on everything and anything.
Cause people don't really care, do they?
They don't. That's why when they decided to turn and walk away,
They don't feel anything. They won't hesitate.
People who care? Of course they are hurt.
Hurt, lonely, abandoned, isolated.
Ditched.
Yes we do. But they don't care.

Accept the fact.

Sometimes it only takes one song,
To say all of your feelings.

BRAND NEW YEAR! :D
Let's post something.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
HAPPY 2011!
HAPPY FUTURE!
HAPPY ME AND YOU!
:D :D :D