I miss you

Boredom can be scary.
See whether you can experience that.
Then you will get what I mean.
I can't explain much.
Haha.

While I am typing this,
SYF for Modern Dance is going on.
It wasn't a very smooth journey.
But hope pebble is doing fine!
Cause I do believe it will definitely not be her fault if anything goes wrong.
Nobody makes so many changes one lo.
Even in orientation, by doing so,
You will get shoot by everybody.
Shoot shoot shoot!
Okay hope this last hurdle can be crossed successfully.
Then everything will be better already! :)

Okay I took MC today.
Went to polyclinic to fix my freaking toe.
AND IT WORKS!
With the medication and creams to apply.
It works!
Hurting so much lesser now.
This is what I called, "consult doctor"
Not just disinfect and lousy bandage.
How will it even heal -.-
Tmr going back to camp.
OF COS! I hope my MC is longer. Hahaha.
But no luh. Gonna go back there yet again.
Going to work is always S.I.A.N. one.
I prefer going to school lo.
I think doing A level again may be even more interesting,
Though mind draining. Haha.

Have been really unlucky this start of the year.
Mahjong always lose like don't know what.
Only managed to win at certain occassions. Twice or thrice.
The rest is lose. Sometimes is lose like zzzz.
I keep spending unnecessary money also.
Lost vocation badge, bought again but found after it.
Got medicine, dropped it, broke, bought again.
Bought wrong beret and cannot refund.
Luckily they are not huge amount of money or it is on credit.
I think that is the lucky thing among the bad one.
Shall treat it as 破财挡灾. Everything can be better from now.
Other unlucky events:
1. Injure this toe. I deemed it as really unlucky and careless.
2. Getting stomach flu virus. Or developing this easily-aroused-anxiety which lead to stomach problem. It doesn't exist. I don't even know how it got develop. Used to be so adaptable and flexible one.
3. Family getting into some financial problems.
Sigh. Don't want recollect bout unlucky things already.

BUT ALL RIGHT!
I really really really really hope that all the unluckiness can stay in that paragraph and forever locked there.
Things please be better~! Smoother~! And more successful~!
Main thing is my health.
Let's get fit again shall we?
Yes we should.

I kicked into an uneven pavement and now my toe there got a skin tore.
But I can't remove it.
I don't know how.
Less painful now.
But it becomes more disgusting.
I seriously and sincerely hope my toe is all right.
Cause it doesn't look likewise.

Tmr gonna see MO again.
No idea is I unlucky or what.
This year is not very smooth.
Sigh.
What to do? I can't control.

But at least I gained someone who love me.
Maybe my luck has all went there.
Then yes,
I won't mind having some misfortunes already. Haha.

It is the sense of maturity that determines the tenacity of your mentality.
I think I have to become more mature and accept the kind of life I am having now.
Always thought that I have some sense of maturity in me.
But I think I got to have more.
Only at such then I will be able to grow and mature.
That is what I have realized and reflected over the past few days.
Still got to grow.

:))

I am such a homey boy.
I don't like changes.
Changes make me ill.
Like I am going to go my new unit tmr.
Need to stay in for one night.
Then stomach acting funny once again.
Not good.
It is not fear. Cause I don't feel scared.
Maybe more of worried? Anxiety etc.
Hope everything will run well.

Ya, will need time to adapt,
Hope can adapt fast,
If not gonna fall sick again.
Not good to be sick yeh~
Zzz.
Will miss my bed will miss you!
But I am still grateful that at least I am not in tekong,
Where I have minimal time and freedom for you.

Be grateful be grateful.
And I need to be less anxious/nervous/worried/bothered!

F.A.T.E.
Hahahaha.
Was being told that it is so for almost the whole night.
Indeed it is.
What an encounter.
Of cos it must be fate.
What else would lead to such sudden meeting?
Ought to have a reason.
Maybe it is a pre-sign. Haha.

Today is my last day of BMT at Kranji Camp 3.
It was a long, mental struggling process.
But I survived eventually.
Even though I don't really integrate well into my Platoon(I don't really want to make myself high profile),
But I still manage to make a few friends there.
Esp Poh Zhi Chao. This Hwa Chong perfect scorer which i befriend with.
He is a really nice, refined guy. Damn smart too. Haha.
Got my posting.
Going to Selarang Camp.
Which is located at another side of Singapore, when compared to my house.
Very very far i got to say.
Heard is go there for training,
May get redeployed.
I hope I get to go somewhere nearer if that will to happen.
If not it will be very tiring for me..

Tonight is quite an encounter.
Okay firstly is the fateful meeting of pebble and my dad.
Secondly is me meeting her clique!
Was bombed with questions which are kinda expected~
You are more nervous than me,
Which I find it very amusing yet cute. Haha!
But ya.
I feel like I gained another 6 more sisters to take care of.
Omg man.
I think I really fated to be with girls. Haha

Happy one month yo! :D

This is love,
I do believe~ :)
<3

What if one day I suddenly perish, will you feel sad?
What if one day I suddenly disappear, will you feel regretful that you should have done/said something to me when I am still around?
What if one day I suddenly vanish, will you hope that you have loved me more?
What if one day I suddenly die, will you want to give up everything just to have me back?

We only live life once.
There is no replay button to press in Life.
With the world changing unprecedentedly, together with the Nature rampaging randomly.
Nobody really know what is going to happen the next day, the next minute, the next second.
Hence.
Cherish the people you love, give them your utmost most.

Once something is lost. It is lost.
There may or may not have a second chance.
Like the latest earthquake in Japan.
It just happened. And leave Japan in a great disarray.
I can't help to think how fragile human life can be.

We need to cherish.
We need to treasure.
We need to show our love.
We need to display our appreciation.
At least by doing so,
We help to make someone's day.
And also,
We know that we will not leave any regret.

I hope if I am really gone suddenly, you will feel sad, but not regretful that you have given me your very best.

当一个男的真正喜欢你的时候，他会主动发信息或者打电话给你，因为他很想你。
他会在乎你的一举一动，因为他怕他随时会失去你。
他看到你心情不好，就会来安慰你，尽管你对他发脾气，他还是忍了。
他会对你说些他的秘密，甚至有些连他最好的朋友也不知道的秘密。
爱的最高境界是经得起平淡的流年。

I wish to be likewise

I am a parasite.
I rely deeply on spiritual pillar to lean on.
I can easily break down and go into depression mode.
That's why.
I think I tend to be over relying.
I make a good thermometer.
That is just saying I am very sensitive.
Very sadly,
That is not a very nice thing to have.

Every moment with you is a a moment I treasure.
It used to just a lyrics.
But now it means what it implies.
I do. Esp now with minimal time to spend with you now..

Hope everything is fine for you.
Seriously do.
Today is a nice day.
Cause it is spent with you.
Hope you have enjoyed too.

:)

Life is made up of different things.
Imagine them as dots, join them up.
It will form an unique picture.

Things always happen for a reason.
Let's just remember that.
And we will try to learn

I can go university le :)
I believe you can go in also! Have faith!
:)

All right. My grade is said to be quite good.
I think so too i guess?
Altho I think I can do better.
But its okay.
I am happy enough that I am able to go uni and make my family proud.

Got friends who do better than me,
Feel so happy for them. Really happy.
But got friends who never do as well as me,
Feeling quite sad cause I know I cannot help them much.
Saying things now will also be quite pointless.
Just hope they can get over.
And they are still able to achieve what they wanna achieve.

Sometimes if things don't go your way,
It will be better to take a detour right?
Life got to carry on.
I mean, that is a hard fact that we can't deny.
If one route is blocked,
Let's take another route.
We make plans.
But sometimes plans do fail.
So we just got to make ourselves stronger.

Shit stuff right?
But yea. This is life.

Thank you for being there.
Being there to be a reason for me.
For me to make myself stronger.
:)

I woke up. Vomited yet again.
I feel so weak. Like an utter failure.
Ever since I went into army,
Everything seemed to be going down.
My stomach. It feels like a crap.

Is it anxiety or what? I don't know.
Feel so disappointed with myself.
Ya nobody really love army. At least not me.
But is that why I am like that?
I don't know.

I don't know what to do.
How to make myself feel better.
Always sick.
I hate myself for being so weak.
But I really don't know what to do.

Don't angry with me la..
I also feel like crying for being so useless.

:(

人生快乐的20个秘诀：

保持微笑；要有目标和追求；
分享别人喜悦；乐于助人；
保持童心；学会与人愉快相处；
保持幽默感；处乱不惊；
学会宽恕他人；常和别人合作，从中获得乐趣；
有知心朋友；保持自信心；
尊重弱者；具备胆识和勇气；
不要太好色；别人说话注意听；
常思问题；多交朋友；
多旅游；不要财迷。

微博provides quite many meaningful posts.
That's why there are quite a number of chinese posts nowadays.
Haha.
The above one is quite cool.
Maybe u can try using it as a checklist.
And you will see whether you are leading a happy life.
Sorry~! Only got chinese people who can read chinese. Haha